Miss Magnifique!!

Saturday, 22 September 2018

oh it''s 2018

ohh wow, going through all my blog posts, now that i am 27...
i just feel so sad.

i mean, what an emotional roller coaster.
i changed. like a lot.

but my story is still the same.
the sadness is still here.

just that, now... i'm a bit matured i guess.
still an emotional girl (or woman i think), but more heartless, i think.

oh wow, it''s 2018. and i''m 27.

i made this blog when i was 19.

time flies.


Tuesday, 17 January 2017

It's been a long time

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh
Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Penyayang


hi, hello...
it's been a long time i didnt update anything.
some of you might have forget about me, just like i forget me too.

i don't know it's been so hard to write a long entry now.
a lot of things run through my mind, but i couldn't express anything with words anymore.

i wanted to go back to where i was Miss M, but i couldn't do it.
i miss everyone yet no one.

my head hurts a lot. my heart hurts a lot.
i wanted to write a long story.
but i just don't know where to start or how to end it.

i bet, my ability to form words has been rust.

i just kinda miss myself.

Thursday, 20 August 2015

#np Loser - Big Bang






i'm a loser, a loner, 
a coward who pretends to be strong,
bad gangster

in the mirror, 
just a loser, loner
a jerk full of hurt, dirty rubbish

in the mirror, i'm a

honestly, i've never fitted in the world
to me who was alone, love was already forgotten
i've had enough of hopeful love songs
you or me are just sad pierrots
who play around inside a scenario just as it's drawn on the path
i came far away
i'm coming home
i want to go back to where i used to be in childhood

at some point
i started to look at the ground more than the sky
it's hard to even breathe
i reach out my hand but no one grabs it

at some point
i started to fear people staring at me
i'm sick of even crying
i smile, but no one even cares about me

i blame the blue sky
i sometimes want to put everything down
i wanna say goodbye
after the wandering of this path finishes
please, i hope i can close my eyes without regrets

i'm a loser
i'm a loser
i'm a loser




#np loser - big bang

Tuesday, 18 August 2015

...

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh
Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Penyayang



when i'm in the middle of situation... it is always hard for me to express something. sometimes and somehow, i too wanna let all go. but there's always something hold me back.

i couldn't share even sikit with any people. even tho the closest.

i guess, in this battle... only Allah can help me.

maybe i am someone who think a lot. think too much.

i just hope, Allah will ease my path. i hope i can live well. and be the positive me again.
to be honest, i am still positive. it's just something borthering me that makes me feel down a bit.

i could do this. eventho i feel like dying. but everything will be fine. it will get better, right?

fighting!


may Allah give a lot of love for all of you, my dear

xoxo.
zehan

Tuesday, 4 August 2015

terima kasih atas setiap pengalaman kecil yang manis dan tersimpan kemas

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh
Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Penyayang







mungkin april hanya datang sekali dalam hidup
lalu ranap ditelan ombak









ikhlas,
zehan

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