Miss Magnifique!!

Monday, 4 June 2012

Coz I Know You Believe......

Assalamualaikum Warahmatullahi Wabarakatuh 
Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Penyayang


*masa: 2008
*tempat: bilik mama


looking at myself. looking at my mama's picture. i'm crying again and again. i miss you, ma. always.
it's more than a year now. i don't know how i can live without you. but i guess i'm living my life without a soul.

mama, adik janji ma. adik janji adik akan jadi orang yang berjaya. adik janji adik tak akan kecewa dan hampakan mama. adik janji adik akan jadi manusia yang cemerlang. walau susah walau payah. adik akan berusaha sehabis boleh. i will work hard. i will study hard. 

mama, adik tak akan give up. will not ever thinking about giving up. walau banyak dugaan yang datang. walau banyak yang ingin menjatuhkan. walau ramai yang menghalang. because i always knew, you always believe in me. you always wanted me to do my best. to be my best.

mama, adik janji ma. adik akan jadi orang yang baik. adik akan berjaya dalam pelajaran. adik akan berjaya dalam bidang yang adik ceburi. adik akan jadi orang yang berguna.

mama, adik janji ma. adik akan senangkan mak dengan ayah. adik akan belikan mak dengan ayah rumah yang selesa. 

mama, mama percaya dan yakin dengan adik kan ma? because, its only you, who believed in me. its only you who always encouraged me. its only you who believed i can through every obstacle. its only you who believed adik akan berjaya.

mama, thank you for everything. i will try my best to not let you down. i will try my best to be a good muslimah. untuk jadi gadis yang diredhai Allah agar dosa adik mama tak tanggung. i will try my best untuk berjaya dalam pelajaran and cita-cita. adik akan gapai impian adik. i will be somebody.

mama, you believe in me, right?



Mama thank you for who I am, thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid for the times I forgot
Mama remember all my life you showed me love, you sacrificed
Think of those young and early days how I've changed along the way
(Along the way)

And I know you believed and I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, yeah I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried, forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused and I've been wrong dry your eyes
Dry your eyes

'Cause I know you believed and I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, I miss you

Mama I hope this makes you smile, I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made how I've changed along the way
'Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you , mama


*** 

dan walau, aku mengalami banyak halangan dan rintangan dalam mencapai cita-cita aku. i'm not giving up...
aku cuma kena bertahan dan terus berusaha. walau bertahun sudah berlalu. dan walau aku tak jadi apa yang aku inginkan dan usahakan. but i'm not going to giving up. i will always try my best. and i will always work hard to be someone yang my mama can proud of atau at least yang my mama boleh senyum dengan tenang di sana.

i aint good. but i always try my best in everything that i do. i work hard. because i never play with my life. i am serious with my life. because, i just want to be the best in everything that i do. 

but right now, everything is out of my control. and everything seems like messed up. but i'm not giving up. if this way is not working for me. i'm gonna do another way. and another way and another way. sampai aku berjaya. sebab aku nak mama aku senyum di sana. sebab aku nak mama tenang di sana...

ya Allah, please help me. 


love,
adik~

28 comments:

Iffah Afeefah said...

sayang mama

#tetibe

Bidadari Syurga said...

adik... sabar ya.. dalam hidup ini byk dugaan tak bermakna DIA tak sayangkan kita. itu petanda DIA mahu kita dekat dengan DIA. kalau rindu al-fatihah tau. insyaallah... tidur lena sayang...

reenapple said...

someday, you gonna see more beautiful colours in your life... just keep believing someday, somehow, you gonna achieve for what you've been dreaming for..

#good luck.

zera eira said...

Semoga mama tenang kat sana ya sis. Sabar. InsyaAllah semua kan mudah bila niat kita betul :)

keli menari said...

Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan :) Aminn.

CaDLyNN said...

M, just believe in urself..usaha n tawakal..insyaAllah..semua akan ok :)

✽ ⓔ ⓔ ⓘ ⓨ ⓢ ⓢ ✽ said...

(^___^)

alin said...

bertabahlah dear, semoga dia tenang disana..

HeNRieTTa JoSe said...

PSS....rietta pkai sebab kulit sunburn n kering...yang yogurt tuh utk apa adik?

Wahyu Ismail said...

sabar ye dik. from a view of a mother. a mother always want the best thing happen to her daughter. You'll be the best because you know how to appriciate a mother.Insya ALLAH.Doa banyak2 untuk mama adik..I'll pray for her too..

aku HaniAsyira said...

don't worry dear.. past is past.. future is future.. =)

Aqilah Ali said...

rasa sebak di dada . ayah saya sakit tenat sekarang =(

Badrina Ibtisam said...

You must always be strong dlm mngharungi khidupan ye kak.:) Smoga akak brjaya dlm hidup di dunia & akhirat. <3

Badrina Ibtisam said...

You must be strong dlm mngharungi khidupan ye kak. :) Smoga Miss M brjaya di dunia & akhirat. <3

EruzuLiyana said...

doa banyak :)

fierul said...

percaya pada diri sendiri ..
saya percaya awak akan dapat tempuh semuanya ..

chemay said...

insyaAllah 1 hari nnti akan berjaya jugak.
:)

Eyda Syahida a.k.a Miss Butterfly said...

semoga terus kuat ya ! go go go ! :)


sory lama tak bw.. jiwa kacau :)

Marya Yusof said...

As salam Adik M,

Ur mama is listening to u, insya'ALLAH... byk2kan doa buat dia di sana ye dik, krn itu shj bekalan buat dia...

Take care...

kay_are said...

ko dah janji ngan mak ko nak hidup baik2.. so teruskan hidup ngan baik ok.. pegang janji ko wat tu =)

khairul said...

byk2 bersabar yer dek

~SaL IjOu~ said...

akak ada simpan satu kata2 :
"BE STRONG..a phrase that is easy to say but a hard thing to do when u r broken"~

but no matter how hard it is..ya, be strong n never give up!~

aniswany said...

mama awak pasti bangga dgn awak :)

shedameor said...

do your best :)

.........cP~ said...

Salam.

Long time no see.! Don't worry. Allah knows best. Kamu mampu, sebab tiu Allah bagi ujian ni. Selagi kamu sabar, banyak ganjaran. I know you can do it. Somehow, there's always way. InsyaAllah.

deno said...

u make me cry dear... sabar ya M.. M kuat.. sis tahu... fighting!!!! :)

aisy krim said...

be strong bebeh =) jgn biarkan perasaan sedeh tu mguasai diri.takut keje lain tak jalan..

Uchi kay-f @hmad said...

adik..jgn sedih2 iyer..senyum bayak taw !!! (^_^)

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