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Tuesday, 31 December 2013

my 'if' wish #1


I know life is so short.

And if I could wish.. I wish I could sing Halo by beyonce to that special someone that I pun tak tau siapa. Haha. The person is so faceless, nameless and anonymous.
But I do hope this description person in halo lyric does exist for me. (Maigad!)

I guess this side of me keep wanting to crawling out.

But Halo song is a fairytale wish.
I should erase it out.
But a girl who doesn't live forever pun still gets to make some wish right? (Who live forever anyway? Except for The One)

This 'if' wish is getting ridiculous y'know?

Funny. I made a fool of myself.

Monday, 23 December 2013

the girl who throws a shit







































That's me.
I throw a shit and leave.

Nice one.

My time is running out and aku sempat lagi buat masalah.

I guess I just want people to hate me.

Thursday, 12 December 2013

Britney Spears - Perfume (new song from Britney Jean album)

Peh tetiba nak blogging pasal britney spears pulak dah. -___-'

Nope, aku bukan peminat britney spears.
Tapi selalu gak layan lagu dia.
Hakhakhak.

Mula-mula masa lagu perfume ni keluar dan aku baca lirik dia aku tak berkenan pun nak dengar ke apa. Sebab lirik dia macam tak ada kena mengena dengan aku.
(Yes, benda first aku kalau dengar lagu based on lirik yang aku baca dulu. tapi kalau aku memang suka penyanyi tu atau rentak dan melodi dia memang best aaaa tu lain cerita memang aku layan je)
So masa tu aku tak lah dengar lagu dia kat youtube kan.

Tapi pagi tadi tah cemana boleh terbaca video perfuma ni dah keluar.
Jadi, aku pi la saja tengok youtube lagu britnry spears ni.

Dannnnn. Aku sukaaaa suara diaaaaaa.
Yess. Suara dia husky dan dia guna suara yang memang suara dia.
Er.. maksud aku sebelum ni pun dia guna suara dia juga cuma tak sama kalau dia nyanyi live.

So lagu perfume ni, memanglah ada edit. Tapi suara dia bukan la suara yg macam korang dengar dekat lagu2 popular and dance dia macam opps I did again ke, I'm not a girl not yet a woman ke.

Tak kisahlah yang penting aku terjebak dengar lagu ni sebab suka suara dia dalam ni. K.


Astagaaaa..


Aku update pakai fon je ni. Tak dapat nak share video youtube. Pandai lah korang cari sendiri.

















Happy Birthday, Dolphin.




Tuesday, 10 December 2013

Skinfood Black Egg Pore Serum Review






Aku beli serum ni tahun lepas. Dah habis dah pun pakainya bulan lepas. Ya tahan setahun sebab aku pakai waktu pagi je dan kadang2 kalau malas memang tak pakai pun. K.

Apa yang aku boleh cakap, serum ni light texture, non oily, and pakai dekat bahagian yang pore sahaja.

Result?
Em em.. adalah nampak sikitttt je perubahan tapi tak instant la. After 3 months i guess?

Tapi not really great. But still worth to try sebab packaging dia comelll. Hahaha.

Bau dia, just a mild scent. Tapi tak tau nak describe macam mana.

Repurchase: maybe nope (sebab better try lain?)

Rating: 3/5




P/s: gambar dari pakcik google.

Monday, 9 December 2013

If I Have A Family On My Own -part 2-

I don't even know when I started to have this daydream. Dreams to build and have a family on my own. But it's getting stronger every day. The vision makin lama makin clear.

I have the vision of laughters, tears and happiness. My dream family might dilanda guruh someday. But still I believe I and my future own family will get through any obstacles.

So, the second thing is, breakfast.
Yes! It's breakfast!
I just imagined myself, after solat subuh, wondering nak sediakan sarapan apa for my husband and kids.

I don't have many cooking skill. But still, I want to do something walaupun hanya buat roti bakar dan tuang orange juice dari kotak.
Atau sediakan cereal dengan susu. Ataupun nasi goreng.

Yes, I want to be a fulltime housewife and a part-time writer. (I still have my biggest passion in writing)

I don't remember the last time I ate breakfast with mama and brothers. Together. Tak ingat. Maybe pagi raya 2006? When I was just 15?
Our breakfast was my aunt's homemade juadah raya. I don't really remember.
Ah, this is sad. I don't remember what I ate on breakfast the last raya yang I sambut with my mama.
Okay, don’t panic. My memory couldn't simpan semua kenangan kan? But.. seriously. It is freaking me out. I don't remember!

Was it nasi impit and kuah kacang? Or nasi something something and lauk something something?
Allah.

Okay, I hope the last raya that I will have with my dream complete family, nak tangkap gambar with the food as well. So, that's why I nak tangkap gambar banyak2. Supaya tak lupa. Supaya.. haih. And I didn't kept any diary about that too. Pity me.

It's okay.
So, the second part is breakfast.
I still remember makan breakfast berdua with my mom bila mama had no appointments. Or selalunya kitorang makan berdua masa aku ada appointment dengan doctors.

Breakfast is important you know.
It is morning and the start of the day. And I don't want to miss it if I could have my own family.

Hi, for those yang baru baca.
Welcome to my 'if' dream entries, if I have a family on my own.
I just realized, life is short. And I just might couldn't have all these with my future family..
Or I couldn't have this kind of family because you know, I am weird and I like to push everyone away when they come near me. :3

So, I decided to share my little secret dreams. Foolish anyway.
Because I am always a girl who steps on the ground. Its kinda too girlish and foolish for me to have these kind of dream.
But, dreaming doesn't hurt, right no?

I do have a dream untuk sediakan breakfast for my husband like this. On bed.

P/s: when the last time you have a breakfast with your whole family? Maybe you can start to have breakfast with them tomorrow morning or pagi sabtu. Remember, life is short. Cherish it. :)

If I Have a Family On My Own -part 1-

I know to have my own family, to build my own family seems so impossible right now. Well, for those yang setia membaca my story in this blog since 2011 might know why it is hard for me.

But anyway, right now aku just nak jadi the ordinary girl who dream to have a family on her own. A dream yang aku rasa ramai gadis nak buat bila mereka berkeluarga nanti.
So, here I am. Talking about my 'if' dream.

The first thing I wanna do, is taking pictures. Lotsa them.
I guess for those yang baca blog ni dari awal tau kenapa aku nak ada gambar family on my own. It was my dream before it shattered into pieces.

So, if aku ada family. Ada suami, ada anak-anak, kalau boleh aku nak tangkap banyak gambar. Every moments. happy moments, sad moments, proud moments, heartbreaking moments. Just want to capture every single of it to feel our togetherness.
You know, life is so short. Kalau katakan aku mati dulu sebelum diorang, at least,  my kids have a memory about me. And for once, they knew they have that perfect family. Have that complete family pictures.

Of course to have that, I need a husband who can cooperate and not leaving me and our kids alone.

That's why it seems so impossible to have a family.  To get married.
Sebab I am difficult and different.

But seriously, if I could have my own family, I want to have a complete and happy portraits  of us. Whoever these us are. Hahaha.

I want this for my kids. I really want this for my kids.
I don't want them to be bitter in their future because there is something that they are longing for.



Nah, I know what you think.  Bila aku cakap macam ni mesti fikir aku dah ada someone. But no. Seriously. Still single, always I guess.
Who wants a trouble and difficult woman like me anyway?

I wrote this sebab.. mungkin sebab if aku dah tak ada nanti, this is something that people would know about my dream. My girlish and foolish dream

I mean some people are already know yang aku sememangnya punya impian to have a complete family portrait.
So this is just an extended version, if I can build my own family. If I can have my own family.


I will start writing these dreams in my blog. Reality is hurtful.
But at least dreaming can make us smile.
(Of course just for awhile. But its a way of escapism juga kan?)

Wanna dream with me?
Maybe you can share your dreams here. No one will know. Except us.. :') (who read of course. Hahaha)


P/s: be good to everyone. just be good. You'll be fine.
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